Today,, and maybe it's not the first time I have thought of this, but maybe the first time I have put it into words... I have realized my BIGGEST FAULT...
FEAR....
I know it's normal.
But is it normal to put your dreams on halt because of it???
When I look back I can honestly link all my failures,, or maybe they didn't even get as FAR as a failure...TO FEAR...
Sure, everyone is in fear of failure,, but TO NOT EVEN FAIL at something because of FEAR??? Now that is crippling.
WHY AM I SO AFRAID of everything??? It seems to even get worse as I get older.
And here I am just turning 34 years old and scared to death of everything....
I know my anxiety plays a huge roll in this. But is my anxiety just an excuse?? To me the feeling of anxiety and panic is real, but maybe it's just the fear that is causing it???
I guess to put FEAR in its place you need to face it. I have definitely done that a few times over the last 6 months, but in everyday life it is still so prevalent--even in just the little things.
I guess if I didn't even question this I would be really in trouble. If I just lived my everyday life in FEAR without acknowledgment. Well lucky for you FEAR... I KNOW YOU'RE there......
Hi Stacy,
I added you to my daily blog roll. I had meant to do it sooner as we have Tracy in common. (Who has had nothing but very good things to say about you!)
I was looking at the books you have listed in your side bar and giggling-I own the lion's share of them and have artwork in 2 of them. Your musical tastes are similar to mine. I turned 34 in March (same b-day as Tracy in fact!) and I struggle with anxiety as well.
Anyway, it was just amusing to me to see how much we have in common and I wanted to say hello. Hope you don't mind if I hang out here and comment once in awhile. I have a blog too if you want a peek. Just go to my website and the link is on my homepage. :)
Posted by: Faith | June 16, 2005 at 02:38 PM