Dear Bailey,
Words cannot even express how much I miss you. I am going through a difficult time right now and you aren't here for me. You have been with me through all my tragedies and difficulties since I was 23 years old.. I am 10 years older now and I STILL need you just as much as when I was 23. Where are you? Things have gone to hell in a hand basket since you've been gone. I think I can honestly say that the last 2 months you've been gone, I feel more lost than ever. I am clinging onto Scout for dear life, smothering him with love and affection hoping and praying he will give me what you did. But Scout has his own qualitites to give. Your Dad and I aren't doing well and I know a lot of it has to do with the loss of you. You were a big bond between us that has been broken, and I don't quite know how to get it back? So much has happened in our relationship lately and you were the one thing we came together on.
I miss kissing your sweet forehead most of all and looking into your brown eyes. You would look back at me with such understanding and with your own words you would tell me "it'll be okay". I don't have that anymore and I feel so lost.
I miss u so bad, Scout misses u so bad.. I wish you could come back.
Hi Stacie, sorry you are going through a hard time. It seems like life transitions -- whether it's illness, loss of a loved one, a change of jobs, etc. -- bring challenges to relationships because it causes us to re-assess our place in the world and within our relationships, and can be a source of anxiety and insecurity. But it is also normal to go through this, maybe realizing that will help you to not lose hope. By all means get outside help if you need it, it can help immensely to get a different point of view on things. Anyway, just my two cents' worth 'cuz I've been there, done that! (And I've only been married a year to the love of my life, but we've already faced challenges due to life transitions) And it sounded like you could use a little support. If you're interested I found some relationship stuff on the internet (when *I* needed it) that spoke to the different stages of relationships, and found it re-assuring during the thick of things.
Take care, Suzanne
Posted by: Suzanne in Albany | April 20, 2006 at 10:59 AM
Sweet Stacie,
I think when a couple looses their baby, they are in so much pain they tend to lash out in anger over thier loss, and unfortunately, they usually hurt the ones they love the most, the ones they know will still love them no matter what. I am so sorry for your loss. I have been there too, and it does get better, slowly. My prayers are with you and Jeff during this time of sorrow.
Jennifer Bly
Posted by: jennifer bly | July 24, 2006 at 07:52 PM